A Word from Daddy

As I have read through Sarah’s posts, I’ve noticed that there is not much about what the husband has felt or seen. So, here is my first post.

I remember back in Sept. of 2006 when this journey began. Before then I never wanted kids, but over time something was missing. I cannot explain the feeling, its something that once you feel it you know what it is.

The longer we tried to conceive, the more emotional the ride got. Sarah would cry or would get down on herself and it was up to me to keep her thoughts positive, even when I was trying to deal with my own emotions. I will admit I was getting to the point where I didn’t think it was going to happen.

The day she told me that she was pregnant I went to cloud nine for days. She also told me that we couldn’t say anything….I can’t keep secrets! I was allowed to tell one person (What’s up EM!) I spent the weekend by myself, I would be just walking through the house and get a little sick to my stomach, thinking about being a dad. Actually, for about a week, I had some morning sickness!

The next week, on Father’s Day, I was nervous about telling our parents. At one point Sarah wanted to back out, I was about to bust, she knew I had to tell. My parents were so happy (I think I saw a tear in my dad’s eyes as he “went to shave”) When Sarah gave her dad the card, well this story is in another post, but this is GrandChuck and GrandApe’s first grandchild!

I never knew what the phrase “Time stood still” meant, until we went for the first ultrasound. When I heard that heartbeat, there were no other sounds in that room, there was nothing else on my mind (probably for the first time since I was kid), and at that moment it all became real to me.

Since then we have had another ultrasound, Sarah is staying hungry and sleepy, I have put on some sympathy pounds and the nursery is getting closer to being ready. For once in my life I now have a dream that has something other than a car or a “project” in it, this is all a new concept for me!